how to succeed at nothing

this is what sucks:

after all the work

the prayer

the hurt

dying to myself

denying myself

and all the trying

nights I stay up

to seek the right

the fight inside

that pulls

and pushes

the crying

and crying out for help

all the times

I’ve bit my tongue

come undone

to repent

the rights of others

I have wronged

the wrongs made right

none of it matters

cuz in the end

according to you

I’m still a righteous bitch.

for the sorrow yet to come

Make me worthy

To give You glory

Through each and every test

Wake me up

When I am drowsy

Do not let me rest

Plant my feet

Upon the Rock

So I will not lose ground

Let Your voice

Resonate

Over every other sound

Grant me courage

To fight on

When I begin to succumb

Promise me

You'll give me strength

For the sorrow yet to come.