Behind

I tried to let it go

I tried so hard to let you know

I felt the hurt that I couldn't show

I went so far just to see you go

I was right there but you couldn't see me

I understood but you didn't believe me

I was even there when you tried to forget me

Now im just left here with a bitter memory

I've tried to leave it all behind

I've tried to forget what I could not find

And now I know it's not easy to rewind

When you can't help but look behind...

Streetlight

I woke up this morning

With you on my mind

Stuck in reverse

Replay and rewind

The sun hit my face

But I wasn't there

Drifting in place

To sometime and somewhere

I'll never forget

Where we were last night

Talking like old friends

Beneath the streetlight

How you laughed

And the way I smiled

Because despite the time

It was worth our while

And when the night grew long

And we had to say goodbye

It felt a little colder

Under that star-strewn sky

Now it's all I've got

That one memory

I have no choice

But to let it be

I feel like I've lost something

I didn't have in the past

It was the first time I met you

And it was also the last.

My Confession

You ask me why

I believe what I do

How I know

All this is true

I try to explain

Philosophically, theologically

But you've heard it before

It's nothing new

All I say

Sounds pointless and empty

Cuz faith runs deeper

Than mere theology

All I know

Is that I know

Beyond the shadow of doubt

To the very core of me

Christ is real

More than life itself

More important to me

Than breath and health

I wish you could see

Wish you could believe

But you'll never understand

Till you know Him yourself.

My Secret

I found God in the morning

When I first arose from bed

I began by praising His Name

His Thoughts filling my head

Then I went about my day

Confident He was near

For He had come to show me my way

And take away my fear

And when the darkness comes again

I will not run away

I've found a Love that brings me Home

A Love that never fades

Destiny

screaming, not breathing
scared of hope leaving
loathing, always holding
afraid to lose control

hard and disbelieving
distrusting what you're not seeing
if only you knew how to break through these chains
if only you could wash out these haunting stains

feeling, always dreaming
mind sometimes reeling
thinking, never blinking
uncertain of where to go

tainted and bruised
you come empty and used
if only you could see past the pain and the sorrow
if only you could look beyond the shadows of tomorrow

dieing, you are trying
to leave behind the lieing
searching, yet still lurking
those faces you hide behind

truth and lies
you decide which one dies
let go of what is for what your life can be
reach out and take hold of your Destiny

Hurt

Beneath the white veil

Hides a black heart

It beats out hate

From the darkest part

The grudge it holds

Is like a disease

It cannot be stopped

It won't be appeased

Hurts pile up

Fueling the flame

The somke is bitter

And only adds to the pain

I hate this part of me

Is poisens my soul

I scream for mercy

But it won't let me go

Deliver me God

From the demons inside

Fight this battle for me

I'm sick of the lies

My hands are tied behind me

I'm sinking like a stone

Save me from myself

I can't do it on my own.