NOT THE SAME

There's a price we have to pay
at the end of everyday
from the pain that we don't see
somethings were never ment to be

I don't know why you came around
but everytime I let you down
I know the truth was always there
but this life is never fair

I want to cry when Im alone
I want to tell you what i did wrong
but I know you won't stay long
I want to save you from the pain
I want to take it all away
but I can't go back the same

I understand the pain you feel
it's going to take some time to heal
the hurt inside comes every day
just don't throw your life away

Your worth is more than I can show
if only I could let you know
what lies beneath this heart of stone
but I have to let it go

I want to cry when Im alone
I want to tell you what I did wrong
but I know you're already gone
I want to save you from the pain
I want to take it all away
but it's just too late

When you look back through the tears
try to see past all your fears
hoping someday you will see
this was how is was supposed to be

I know the peace will come inside
if only you don't let it pass you by
and if you still can't let me go
well there's something you should know

I always cried when I was alone
I tried to tell you what I did wrong
but I need to move on
I couldn't save you from the pain
I couldn't take it all away
so I'm letting go today

I tried to do this on my own
I tried to say what all went wrong
but now I will move on
I never thought I'd see the day
when Someone else could take this pain away
and now I'll never go back the same

Before You Close Your Eyes

for every tear

there was a silent cry

for every doubt

came another lie

drowning yourself

you weren't aware

so many questions

but you didn't care

ignoring what was reality

just so you would feel ok

but you always went back

by the end of the day

giving up any reason

truth would come for you

resisting the fear that nagged

everytime it would fall through

trying so hard to forget

this nightmare of a dream

just to find you were awake

wondering if anyone heard you scream

maybe there was nothing after all

no meaning to this life we live for

thinking you'd just be another forgotten

full of emptiness, nothing more

but as you try to look away

before you close your eyes

find the important things in life

don't turn out the lights

i want to tell you im here

but i know im not the only one

look to the One who gives you life

who can undo all that you've done

Obscurity

You look at me

But don't see the tears

You hear me speak

But don't understand

I live on my own

Though you are near

I'm clinging to a raft

While you're on dry land

I don't know why

We don't see the same

I don't know why

We can't agree

You mock my ideals

Make fun of my pain

I retreat once again

Into obscurity

It's hard to pretend

That it's of no importance

When you make me feel

Like a tiny ant

I shouldn't be bothered

By your indifference

I need to let it go

But find that I can't.

Soul Connection

With some it is a spoken word

A knowing glance

A secret smile

With others it is merely living

Side by side

Never speaking

With some it is a cup of coffee

A bright boquet

A post-it note

With you it's just a simple knowing

The tie that binds

A soul connection

1/18/10

Just like a flower

that will not bloom

afraid to open

awaiting its doom

unwilling to share

the beauty within

closed so tightly

fighting to win

unsure of the world

and all its pain

hiding from the unknown

striving in vain

shrinking away

from life outside

keeping locked down

scared even to try

facing the danger

it just wasn't fair

so this flower remained shut

thinking nobody would care